Monday, January 15, 2007

In Need of a Mental Laxative

I used to not believe in that phenomenon widely known as "writer's block"--or as my friend Prometheus (whose posts I sorely miss) termed it, "blogstipation." But now I do.

Well, not exactly.

The problem isn't having nothing to write about. There's a plethora of topics, what with these myriad ideas swirling about in the cesspool that attempts to pass itself off as my mind. But somehow, for some reason, I can't seem to pin down these thoughts accurately enough--or long enough--to form coherent words about them. It's like there's something blocking the path from mind to fingertips that my thoughts traverse before I'm able to write about them or type them. Therein lies the problem.

So these fingers find themselves either idle or twitching almost spasmodically (like right now) in an effort to capture those thoughts--and failing dismally. What comes out is just a shadow of what wants to be written, a ghost, a pale and poor imitation. The meat of what I want to say is there, yet it isn't. I feel like a dog trying to bite its own tail: spinning round and round, looking ludicrous in its attempt to capture what's supposed to be within easy reach. Sometimes, though, it succeeds. Who knows how the dog feels then? Who cares? Well, the dog does, at least.

I hope this dog catches her tail tale soon. Every dog has its day. (I just couldn't resist that last one, haha!)

Maybe I need to start sleeping less again.
(Addendum: I've been an insomniac many, many years now. I usually work from late at night to very early in the morning. Sleep for a few hours, then do what I have to do for the day. Recently, though, there have been some nights that have found me lost in snoozeland during normal sleeping hours--and for longer hours than the four or five to which I've become accustomed. It has screwed up my ability to write somehow; hence, my consideration of the idea of sleeping less again.)

33 comments:

david santos said...

Lizza, helo!
Vrey good.
Tank you.

Lizza said...

Thanks for stopping in, David. I wish I knew Portuguese, though, so I could understand the poetry and other entries on your blog.

houseband00 said...

Writer's block = lack of sleep + lack of coffee.

Oh, the irony! =)

Gumby said...

wow. the only blog I planned on writing tonight, after catching up on all of my favorites, was going to be about my Blogger's Block. seems I'm not alone...

thethinker said...

Wow, for someone supposedly suffering from writer's block, that was very well written. I always have an easier time writing about not being able to write than writing about anything worthwhile.

And, strangely, I also find that when I sleep less, I write better. Strange connection, but it's true.

zeroimpact said...

I think I know what you are talking about
It's like you have so much to say but then you do not know how to say it
I get that all the time
But no worries, I think you will soon be flexing those fingers and brain to write more good stuff for us to read
:)

Sidney said...

He,he... I hope those laxative pills will help! ;-)

Turnbaby said...

I totally get this. The worst thing is the combination of insomnia and writer's block--all that time and day-um-NOTHING to show for it. I just read blogs and post goofy comments--see!

Lizza said...

HB: Haha! Since I started sleeping normal hours, this is what happened. Honghang ka talaga. :-)

Gumby: Bugger blogger's block! I'm glad to be in good company, though.

Thinker: That seems to be true for some of us. Insomnia, good for writing but not so good for the body. Oh, what to do?

ZI: Thanks for the vote of confidence. I know this is only temporary.

Sidney: Haha! They will, but not the way I need them to.

Lizza said...

Turnbaby: Oh yeah, just staring blankly at the screen, like a retarded zombie (if there's such a thing).

That wasn't a goofy comment you left! :-)

laurzeilei said...
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laurzeilei said...

Hello Lizza!

I am taking a few moments this evening to catch up on some favorite blogs. Upon reading this post, I was instantly reminded as to why I was captivated by your blog in the first place. Very nice.

I have been blogstipated (what a funny term by the way...ha!) for months now. Insomnia strikes me frequently (and has since about the age of 15), but I have been using that energy to work on WORK stuff and not BLOG stuff. Self-proclaimed work-a-holic. Yep, that's me. Maybe I should go back to being a blog-a-holic. Hm?

I think I am feeling some inspiration now to write again after reading your very well written shadow of what wants to be written. ;)

Happy belated new year, sweetie!

Lizza said...

Lauuuuurz! It's so great to hear from you again. Finding a balance between blogging and working...hmmm, I should pay more attention to that. ;-)

I hope to read more of your stuff soon. It looks like two-oh-oh-seven started out well for you.

Belated happy new year to you too!

mist1 said...

I don't need a laxative. I let sh*t go all the time.

Kiyotoe said...

lol @ Mist. Somethin' ain't right in that little goldfish's head.....

but anyway, i'm suffering from a battle between what i call "writer's integrity" and my desire to avoid conflict. That Taboo post I wrote, has many more legs to walk on if I choose to address it again (like the counselor did on her page).

But i feel like if i do address it again, it might really stir up one of those hornets' nests again.

what do you think Lizza? show me the light......

Lizza said...

mist1: Haha! And I'm glad you do.

Kiyotoe: I think you're right about Mist. That's why we enjoy her so much.

I've read The Counselor's post and I think you should continue to write what you want to write. Conflict isn't always a bad thing. ;-)

ShadowFalcon said...

I love the word "myriad"

When I don't know what to blog about I throw up a cartoon...its a cop out I know...

Lizza said...

I've done that, too. The thing is, I know what I want to blog about, but what comes out in my writing isn't exactly what I was thinking about. And it's annoying as hell.

Nunu's morally depraved mum said...

If I wrote less than half of what my morally depraved mind spews out, my husband would've had me deported back to the Philippines (with a warning issued to UK immigration to block possible future entry attempts)

hmmmmmmmm....now why didn't I think of that before???


anyway, writer's block or whateveryouwannacallit, Lizza still looks sassy!!!

She does. To all her readers out there, this is one gorgeous smart chick!

Sige na Lizza, pakita ka na sa mga fans mo...

Matt-Man said...

I find myself having that same problem today...

Odat said...

Lizza, If that's "blogstipation"...I want some!
Peace

Wendz said...

Don't sleep less Lizza...your body probably needs the sleep. Let blogging take a back seat for a while..or just write mundane things until your creative juices flow again..."relax, Max, and have a beer"....as my brother says!

:O)

Wendz said...

Here's an idea - just came to me..why not do the audio meme that I did?

I'd love to learn more about your language too.

lastlifeinmyuniverse said...

im goin thru the same issue... i cant seem to get inspired :(

by the way, i like this post. very well written ! two thumbs up :)

Lizza said...

Depraved mum (kuno): As if you could bear to leave your gwaping and beloved hubby! At tigilan mo yang gorgeous ek-ek na yan, baka may maniwala. Haha! You're the gorgeous and smart one here.

Matt-man: Hope it wears off! If you find a good mental laxative, let me know.

Odat: Your comments always make me smile; you're such a sweetie.

Wendz: A beer sounds soooo good. Yeah, I know you're right, that I need my sleep. Thanks! I think I'll take you up on that audio meme soon. It's something different and I like the idea (even though I don't really like the sound of my voice; it sounds very different from the one I hear in my head).

Deb: Thanks! I feel the same way about your art (that it's well done). Why don't you mosey over to Wendz's blog and do the audio meme too? I'm going to tag you to do it anyway. Haha!

Bond said...

happens to me often Lizza... it shall pass...

Sanni said...

Same cross, different nails...

I hope everything will be fine again soon =)

*whispering* If you find some fine pills, please let me know... from one insomniac to another =)

Steven Novak said...

Whenever I find myself with a case of writer/artists block I take long, long, long showers...

We're talking 45 to 50 minutes...

I'm not sure why, but it seems to work. I do my best thinking naked. ;)

Steve~

Lizza said...

Bond: Thanks. I know it will, but it's good to hear you say so. I still can't view that Scissors thingy of yours, though! Grrr....

Sanni: Of course, my dear. I surely will. :-)

Steve: Oooh, really? Thanks for the tip! Going to run off to the shower in a few minutes, and leave a trail of clothing...haha!

Photo Cache said...

you in this condition is much much bettter than 90% of everyone out there blogging or at least pretending to blog. ur right lizza this is the reason i abandoned the blogging world in lieu of photoblogging, words are difficult to capture, photos are easier. this is a wonderful post. my rx...i think you have been under-dosing on the budweiser my friend...take the full dosage :)

Lizza said...

Photo: Thank you so much!

Now you're my kind of doctor. But in lieu of the Bud, I'll take SMB!!!!! Yee-haw! :-D

Rach said...

I hope you get back to it. I enjoy what I have read so far in your blog.

Lizza said...

Thank you very much, Rach. I'm glad to see you here. I'll go visit your area of blogworld ASAP!